Recently there's a lot of things kept happening around.

During Chinese New Year, Mid-period, and after that.

Some concerning about my problems and 1 is about my grandma.

Some things are really saddening and I don't want to think of.

But, it just kept popping out in my mind.

The images are random.

And I am really hurt.
Perhaps all these? ...

And some things are meant to be said.

Not to be avoided.

Perhaps its me thinking too much?

Or perhaps not.

Did I do something wrong? Or said something bad?

I don't know.

I can no longer take this if I don't settle things quick.

Grandma has been hospitalize due to infection at her kidney.

She just had operation in the evening today.

The doctor said that it may be an major operation for her to take it.

As for normal person, it will be an easy operation.

Due to her age and health, so its consider a major operation.

There were 2 possibilities that the doctor said.

1: may not survive the operation

2: if continue to take medicine, the same thing will occurred to her again.

So the doctor told us to make a decision.

Everybody was so worried there.

She have 6 children and 2 grandchild at the hospital with her.

Tears rolling down from each of them.

Praying that she will be al-right.

After the operation, she was transferred to Intensive Care Unit.

The ICU doctor says, she may need to take dialysis again.

On her age now, how can she take it?

Already 70 plus year old le, still need to take dialysis.

These past few weeks, it isn't normal for me and my family members.

If we were to realise it earlier, all these may not have happen till so bad.

And things aren't the same any more as last time.

Sorry zhen, Im sorry that I causes you so much miserable. The reason is I love her and I cannot let her down till I clarify it out. I can't do that. I'm sorry.