你笑着说
他是朋友
但你眼中太温柔
我的不安
那么沉重
只有你不懂
他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说
我们不是你和我
是我想太多
你总这样说但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由
他霸占了你的心中属于我的角落
所以你说我们不是你和我
是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由
我想我没有错怪了什么
虽然你不说或许错在我
太晚我才懂爱了你太多
是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

男人歌 session soon! =)

Let past be pass, live the life we had now. Do the things I always wants to do! Jiayou!
从零开始。

All the best ya?! =)

So many words for the broken heart
It's hard to see in a crimson love
So hard to breathe
Walk with me, and maybe...

Nights of light so soon become
Wild and free, I could feel the sun.
Your every wish
Will be done.

Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with?
Tell me why
I can't be there where you are
There's something missing in my heart

Life goes on as it never ends
Eyes of stone observe the trends
They never say forever gaze if only
Guilty roads to an endless love
There's no control
Are you with me now?
Your every wish will be done

There's nowhere to run
I have no place to go
Surrender my heart, body and soul
How can it be you're asking me to feel
The things you never show?

You are missing in my heart
Tell me why
I cannot be there where you are

There's something missing in my heart

Recently there's a lot of things kept happening around.

During Chinese New Year, Mid-period, and after that.

Some concerning about my problems and 1 is about my grandma.

Some things are really saddening and I don't want to think of.

But, it just kept popping out in my mind.

The images are random.

And I am really hurt.
Perhaps all these? ...

And some things are meant to be said.

Not to be avoided.

Perhaps its me thinking too much?

Or perhaps not.

Did I do something wrong? Or said something bad?

I don't know.

I can no longer take this if I don't settle things quick.

Grandma has been hospitalize due to infection at her kidney.

She just had operation in the evening today.

The doctor said that it may be an major operation for her to take it.

As for normal person, it will be an easy operation.

Due to her age and health, so its consider a major operation.

There were 2 possibilities that the doctor said.

1: may not survive the operation

2: if continue to take medicine, the same thing will occurred to her again.

So the doctor told us to make a decision.

Everybody was so worried there.

She have 6 children and 2 grandchild at the hospital with her.

Tears rolling down from each of them.

Praying that she will be al-right.

After the operation, she was transferred to Intensive Care Unit.

The ICU doctor says, she may need to take dialysis again.

On her age now, how can she take it?

Already 70 plus year old le, still need to take dialysis.

These past few weeks, it isn't normal for me and my family members.

If we were to realise it earlier, all these may not have happen till so bad.

And things aren't the same any more as last time.

Sorry zhen, Im sorry that I causes you so much miserable. The reason is I love her and I cannot let her down till I clarify it out. I can't do that. I'm sorry.

她的輕狂留在 某一節車廂

地下鐵裡的風 比回憶還重

整座城市一直等著我

有一段感情還在漂泊

對她唯一遺憾 是分手那天

我奔騰的眼淚 都停不下來

若那一刻重來 我不哭

讓她知道我可以很好

*我愛她 轟轟烈烈最瘋狂

我的夢 狠狠碎過卻不會忘

曾為她 相信明天就是未來

情節有多壞 都不肯醒來

我愛她 跌跌撞撞到絕望

我的心 深深傷過卻不會忘

我和她 不再屬于這個地方

最初的天堂 最終的荒唐*

如果還有遺憾 又怎麼樣呢

傷了痛了懂了 就能好了嗎

曾經依靠彼此的肩膀

如今各自在人海流浪

我愛她 轟轟烈烈最瘋狂

我的夢 狠狠碎過卻不會忘

逃不開 愛越深越互相傷害

越深的依賴 越多的空白

該怎麼去愛

*我愛她 轟轟烈烈最瘋狂

我的夢 狠狠碎過卻不會忘

曾為她 相信明天就是未來

情節有多壞 都不肯醒來

我愛她 跌跌撞撞到絕望

我的心 深深傷過卻不會忘

我和她 不再屬于這個地方

最初的天堂 最終的荒唐*

如果還有遺憾 是分手那天

我奔騰的眼淚 都停不下來

若那一刻重來 我不哭

讓她知道我可以很好

Happy Chinese New Year!

除夕, had reunion dinner at home (Hougang). We were having steamboat. Six uncle came by too, with his wife and child. After that around 2am, we went to chinatown for a walk and shun bian buy some of the things. As those things was extremely cheap.

初一, went to my 姑婆 house in the afternoon. Omg! There were lobster! (Ba gua) I taste it and it was really nice. Luckily ar, I never tio itchiness. If not very suay sia during CNY. Cousins came by too and chat a little bit because not really close with them. Went off at about 4pm plus. And at around 7pm plus I met my ITE friends to go for Kelvin chalet. We went there 拜年, played blackjack and mahjiong. I won $16 in total. :) Next day morning at around 7am then reached home.

初二, wake up at 11am. Prepare everything and get ready to go 姑婆 house again as some of my relatives meeting at there. After that went to my grandma house liao. I'm the last batched to have my dinner as I waited for my parents to come back and eat together. Around 7pm, I meet heng lee at kitying house downstairs and he droved us to Ms Gina Tan house. We were having Fun! As it been since so long I've seen her. I think 1 thing she never changed was the height. Oops! Had steamboat at her house, I couldn't reject it as her mum already prepared for us already. That time I was quite full too. So I ate again lo, although the food was all vegetarian, it was nice! There were Sotong, goat meat, pig stomach etc... (All flour) During the steamboat session, Ms Gina told us about the incident she had when she's having a degree in Melbourn. Ms Gina Tan: While one day, as I was walking home. There was a rookie came begging $2.50 from me for drugs. That guy said to Ms Gina Tan, if she was willing to give the money, he will gave her a F*CK! Omg! $2.50 for a F*CK?! Ms Gina Tan was so afraid that the rookie will do something to her. So she said: 我不知道！ 我不知道！我不知道！Damn funny sia. We all laughed. After steamboat, we had 捞鱼生。Then after that jiu play blackjack. If lose jiu kana draw with markers at our hand. Went off around 1030pm, went to Concorde hotel to drink. Drink till next day morning then reached home.

初三, went back to grandama house. In the night went to Kenny house to play blackjack till 3am then reached home. Won around $4 dollars. Lose and Win...

初四, No school. Wake up at 8am and went to Malaysia with aunt, aunt husband and sis. Want to buy clothes de, saw 1 T-shirt which was very nice! Unfortunately the person spoiled the T-shirt, as when taking out the shirt from the cover. Scotch tape stick to the T-shirt and when they pulled out, something drop out together with it. Sian lo. No choice, no clothes liao. Jiu go buy sandals. It was nice, black in colour. After that we went to have our lunch at Japanese restaurant. Hmmm! Nice la! Yum Yum! If next time can go again, I wished it would be you.

Tomorrow starting school liao! Sian sia! And Exams coming too..

EveryOne JiaYou!

JunXian.

那一扇车门
关出我们的裂痕
一声就震断了回头的路程

爱无法均分
以后就留给你们
也许用伤害结束爱才更动人

容忍的人其实并不笨
只是宁可对自己残忍
既然爱不能恒温
祝福就给你下一个人

你是好人也是个坏人
对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
这点痛我还能忍

我是好人也是个坏人
分得够狠你才有借口转身
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人

三个人从不对等
总有个人必须牺牲
那永恒就等他带你完成

你是好人也是个坏人
对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
这点痛我还能忍
我是好人也是个坏人
分得够狠你才有借口转身
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人

宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人