那一扇车门
关出我们的裂痕
一声就震断了回头的路程

爱无法均分
以后就留给你们
也许用伤害结束爱才更动人

容忍的人其实并不笨
只是宁可对自己残忍
既然爱不能恒温
祝福就给你下一个人

你是好人也是个坏人
对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
这点痛我还能忍

我是好人也是个坏人
分得够狠你才有借口转身
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人

三个人从不对等
总有个人必须牺牲
那永恒就等他带你完成

你是好人也是个坏人
对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
这点痛我还能忍
我是好人也是个坏人
分得够狠你才有借口转身
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人

宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人

On the 23rd of January I had to attend Hui Ying birthday celebration and to go for Primary school gathering. But I never went for the birthday celebration. I'm so sorry, because before huiying send me the message, I already agreed on for the gathering. And some more it was late too.

I met Kit ying and take bus to katong Aston's after that. We took some photos in the bus too..

LoLs.. Kit ying face so round! Like moon! hahaha! Hmm.. I got sun burn.. Sian.. Face so red..

At Aston's I had double up chicken, Hickory and terriyaki. =) It's been long since I last went to Aston's. It's with bii and friends.

We took some pictures there too, but it was in sun yi camera.

Henglee, Sun Yi and I went to the toilet after that. We shared the same toilet. As we are brothers! Haha.. There were people looking at us too while we are outside the toilet, cause we are laughing as if nobody business. After we came out of the toilet, a couple looked at us with strange eyes and kept laughing. Lols.. Damn funny de lahx..

Had a good chat there too. After that we go our separate ways. As sunyi need to go back home early. Henglee go paya lebar for friend bbq. While catherine, chai chin, kit ying and I went to east coast park slack. I actually don't want to go de as I'm feeling tired. But I was worried for them. 3 girls go there, no guy accompany them very dangerous. So I tag along lor..

When we reached there, I and kit ying went to find her brother, as he was working there at the tamiaya shop. Saw her brother girlfriend too and chat with her. After finding her brother, we went to a shelter place to settle down. Catherine and chai chin spray the both of us with the foam thing. I don't know why I was so unhappy about that matter. And I keep asking them to stop but they didn't. I was very pek chek so I and kit ying plan to go play pool. As kit ying wants to learn pool so I teached her. Chai chin called and ask me where am I? I told I'm at sub way, she listen till parkway and give me attitude. Of course I was very unhappy lahx.. And I text her back too.. saying very mad words, as I nowadys keep emoing.. The problem was solved too with some communications.

These days kept feeling emo, don't know why.. Maybe I'm abnormal bahx.. Seeing some other people doing something.. Makes me so emo.. Haiz.. Recently keep listening to 1 song.. The song is "坏人". This song quite nice.. Listen le also feel emo.. Don't know why I kept listen to this song.

As 1 matter is solved and the other matter comes. Headache sia.. Why do unhappy things keep going on? I don't like this.

How I wish that there's a Time machine for me to go back..

There's been something I want to say out to somebody but I just don't know how to start it.

I've been not myself lately. It feels like there is something gone missing. A part of mine have went missing. Its something that always let my heart feels so sour. Its been very long since I had this type of feeling. Maybe there is something wrong with me perhaps. Abnormal! haha!

This time I always kept thinking. On the way home after school, go out with friends etc.. I've been thinking that, do I really know what is love? Maybe I don't know. Its been quite awhile that I have fallen for this special someone I have now! A person that I hope to see her smiles and how's she been doing I'm contented. Sometimes when she is feeling stress, all I want to is cheer her up. But I don't know how to start it. I'm afraid that I will make her even more stress and fed-up. So I will kept quiet or ask other things unrelated to that subject. It seems like, I don't have any more courage of that love thing I have anymore. I'm utterly disappointed in myself. Why couldn't I do such a simple thing like that! Or its just not simple? Maybe to others, it might be simple for you. But to me, its difficult.

Sometimes as I went out with my friends and buddies. I will treat it as there's nothing wrong with me. I will laugh as usual as long I'm with them. No one truly knows me. I just don't know how to start a proper conversation with them. There are some matters I don't want to let them know as they will worry. When worries, they will become stress and can't excel in something. All I can do is keep it inside my inner heart. Seeing them sad, makes me even more sad too. Especially those that I really cares about. I don't really care what happens to me. I want my love ones to stay healthy and fortunate, that is my greatest wish already. =)

Anyway, this coming Saturday I'm going out for huiying birthday celebration and for gathering with my beloved primary school mates! Will be going katong there eat Aston's. Not sure if I will reach on time? If not later kana heng lee point middle finger at me.. LOLs! Joking Joking..

I don't expect anything from you.

I just hope that you will be happy.

Today after school, in train I damn duLan sia.

Got a pregnant lady board the train, got people see till. Still don't want to give up the seats to her.

I'm mad at myself too, why didn't I have the courage to ask other people to stand up and give away the seat?!

Friday was Michael advance birthday.

Jesmond, Derek, Wei Liang, Dominic, Jia Ming and Me celebrated for him.

While on my way to meet them, there was funny and happy things along the way.

1st: When on the way to Mrt, I went to buy Mrt concession, there was a china guy, he wanted to return the standard ticket that he bought. But he don't know how to speak English to that officer, so I helped him. Take him to that machine and help him to refund it. After that he said thanks to me with a big smile. I was like so happy lahx.. =) I did a good deed!

2nd: I went to take the Mrt and meet them at dhoby ghuat. I saw a tissue paper inside the train. I never pick it up of course, then an china uncle came in. He pick up that tissue paper and put it inside his pocket. I was like, shocked lo.. So dirty and he picked it up. Some more used it to clean his handphone. Didn't he noticed how dirty it was?

After that I meet till Michael and friends, they ate pizza hut but I was late. Shit! Michael on the house man! Never mind lahx.. Don't want him to waste so much too. Hard earn money.. So I ate it at home. =)

Michael bought ticket for us to watch at 9.10pm, as it was still too early after their dinner at pizza hut, they went to arcade. I think there is something wrong with Michael and dominic stomach. They immediately went to the gents after that. They took so long lor.. Doing big business.. Haha

3rd: While waiting for the movie to show at 9.10pm, we decided to walk around, went to the arcade at plaza singapura. See people play fight games.. I don't know what that called. I saw a lady liked guy, golden hair, tight fit shirt, skinnies, red high heels and carrying a red handbag! I and Derek immediately noticed it and started to talk about it. The lady liked guy, played the fighting games too, she/he was good! And we watched her/him play. Wa kao! She/he turned back and bio at me.. LOLs! There's eye on his/her back sia! Think he/she like either me or Derek liao.. Oh my 天!

It was 9pm, we decided to go cathay for the movie. On our way there, it seems that Michael wanted to take number from a girl. Grey coloured shirt, long black pants and carrying a black handbag, long hair and hair bands too. They said that the girl was pretty sia. But when I looked at her, she's okay only lahx.. Pretty is liked, see her for a glance is quite nice. But if you looked at her longer, it's not 耐看.

4th: Reached Cathay, at 9.24pm. We are late! The movie already started. We found our seats and settle down. We watched "The spy next door". Michael was sitting beside my right, he was laughing damn loud! And I told Dominic that Michael laughter was unstoppable! He too agreed! And while watching the movie kept saying 3 "WA's"! = Wa kao!, Wa lau!, Wa biang!. LOLs

After the movie, we went to play Lan games. And stayed till there till 3.30am, I took the Night rider bus home. And reached home at 4am.

Happy Birthday Michael!

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As for today, I had a friendly match with SPGG. I was not on form! So sad, I guess I know what's the reason. It's because all I think about was the food! In the end paid $10, and I only ate a little nia. After playing the game, all the people chiong in and take the food, and my partner kian tat, we ate so little. Next time got this stupid event, I might consider first le. Wasted $10 for that little amount of FOOD!

Around 6pm I leaved the place together with Kian Tat as he was going to city hall to have dinner with his girlfriend. I was going to Orchard to meet with Heng Lee, Catherine, Chia Chin, Mao and Bing Siang. They were at takashimaya, G2000. Because Heng wants to buy a blazer. After that, Mao, Heng and bing siang went to bugis to have their dinner. While Catherine, Chai chin and me went to kallang Iman restaurant to have our dinner. I had 2 bomb prata and a cup of teh halia ( ginger tea milk ).

Went to the nearby river to slack with them till 11pm and I headed back home.

Overall today was a quite okay okay day for me bahx. Nothing special, just that one thing special is that I text bii. Already very contented le. =)

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Somethings are not meant the way it is. Don't dwell on it any more. Sorry that I can't.

Now that things are finally coming to an end.

I'm really glad that things have been solved.

Lending my ear to them, saying what they wants to and giving them opinion.

Sometimes, I might even afraid that I will say the wrong things.

So I tend to reconsider what I have to say before actually saying it out.

Some people just thinks that I'm slow.

LOL. I never blame them.

They also didn't even ask me.. haha

Hmm.. I have stop 1 of my bad habit, that is biting my finger nails.

LOLs. Chai chin you must be seeing my post right?

Yup! I have promised you!

You too must mean what you say okay?

Must do it! If not I jiu!!! Erm.. Something bad happen ar.. Haha

You must continue to keep going no matter what happens okay?

As I will be there for you! Everybody too ya?!

Don't give up.

Don't because of a little setback then don't want to continue.

As What I promise you!

Rice mahx.. Make sure you eat it all ar!

Do not left any bit of rice next time when I pass it to you, if not my effort will be gone..

Haha.. Try my fu zhou chao fan bahx!

Wish that bii Flu will be okay!

Then she will be able to go out wth her buddies and lao po again.

Ao-Mi-To-Fo.

So many things to stress!

Life is so unpredictable!

I'm stuck!

Wish that I can go for a holiday.

To somewhere peaceful and there are beautiful scenery.

Wish that I can relax.

But there are so many things I can't just leave it alone.

Friends problem have cause me headache too.

Worry for them next, as for what is going to happen.

How I wish that person never even have existed.

If he doesn't appear, all this matter wouldn't have happened.

And it's now causing my brother so much pain.

What a loser that guy is!

Am I the one?

Or

Am I just the replacement?