你笑着说
他是朋友
但你眼中太温柔
我的不安
那么沉重
只有你不懂
他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说
我们不是你和我
是我想太多
你总这样说但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由
他霸占了你的心中属于我的角落
所以你说我们不是你和我
是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由
我想我没有错怪了什么
虽然你不说或许错在我
太晚我才懂爱了你太多
是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

男人歌 session soon! =)

Let past be pass, live the life we had now. Do the things I always wants to do! Jiayou!
从零开始。

All the best ya?! =)

So many words for the broken heart
It's hard to see in a crimson love
So hard to breathe
Walk with me, and maybe...

Nights of light so soon become
Wild and free, I could feel the sun.
Your every wish
Will be done.

Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with?
Tell me why
I can't be there where you are
There's something missing in my heart

Life goes on as it never ends
Eyes of stone observe the trends
They never say forever gaze if only
Guilty roads to an endless love
There's no control
Are you with me now?
Your every wish will be done

There's nowhere to run
I have no place to go
Surrender my heart, body and soul
How can it be you're asking me to feel
The things you never show?

You are missing in my heart
Tell me why
I cannot be there where you are

There's something missing in my heart

Recently there's a lot of things kept happening around.

During Chinese New Year, Mid-period, and after that.

Some concerning about my problems and 1 is about my grandma.

Some things are really saddening and I don't want to think of.

But, it just kept popping out in my mind.

The images are random.

And I am really hurt.
Perhaps all these? ...

And some things are meant to be said.

Not to be avoided.

Perhaps its me thinking too much?

Or perhaps not.

Did I do something wrong? Or said something bad?

I don't know.

I can no longer take this if I don't settle things quick.

Grandma has been hospitalize due to infection at her kidney.

She just had operation in the evening today.

The doctor said that it may be an major operation for her to take it.

As for normal person, it will be an easy operation.

Due to her age and health, so its consider a major operation.

There were 2 possibilities that the doctor said.

1: may not survive the operation

2: if continue to take medicine, the same thing will occurred to her again.

So the doctor told us to make a decision.

Everybody was so worried there.

She have 6 children and 2 grandchild at the hospital with her.

Tears rolling down from each of them.

Praying that she will be al-right.

After the operation, she was transferred to Intensive Care Unit.

The ICU doctor says, she may need to take dialysis again.

On her age now, how can she take it?

Already 70 plus year old le, still need to take dialysis.

These past few weeks, it isn't normal for me and my family members.

If we were to realise it earlier, all these may not have happen till so bad.

And things aren't the same any more as last time.

Sorry zhen, Im sorry that I causes you so much miserable. The reason is I love her and I cannot let her down till I clarify it out. I can't do that. I'm sorry.