Have I been giving too much lately?

And I think I have not been receiving too either.

It's always me giving the message out.

And always the result is the same.

It won't turn out to be the one that I'm imagining on.

Sometimes I might lie to myself.

Always hoping for a better life.

This ****t*****i* isn't what I wants.

I know that I cannot always think of myself.

But I just couldn't take it.

Always the same result.

I've tried quite a lot of times but I think some wouldn't have notice it.

They would just carry on their normal life.

Every time after school, I was hoping for something.

But it's just my wishful thinking.

Have I not been taking the initiative?

I think I have taken a lot of times.

Or maybe its just my excuses?

I don't know..

Many things have happening lately around me.

I just couldn't find that someone to talk with.

I could only find some of the friends who are there for me.

Something have been happening to my close friends too.

They shared it with me and I agree with their points too.

Its really saddening to see those troublesome matters keep on repeating again and again.

Sometimes I wish that I could just avoid it.

But I can't do that.

Its very selfish of me doing that.

I really hope things will change.

And I wish that the person stays happy.

Naturally I'll be happy for her/him.