There's been something I want to say out to somebody but I just don't know how to start it.

I've been not myself lately. It feels like there is something gone missing. A part of mine have went missing. Its something that always let my heart feels so sour. Its been very long since I had this type of feeling. Maybe there is something wrong with me perhaps. Abnormal! haha!

This time I always kept thinking. On the way home after school, go out with friends etc.. I've been thinking that, do I really know what is love? Maybe I don't know. Its been quite awhile that I have fallen for this special someone I have now! A person that I hope to see her smiles and how's she been doing I'm contented. Sometimes when she is feeling stress, all I want to is cheer her up. But I don't know how to start it. I'm afraid that I will make her even more stress and fed-up. So I will kept quiet or ask other things unrelated to that subject. It seems like, I don't have any more courage of that love thing I have anymore. I'm utterly disappointed in myself. Why couldn't I do such a simple thing like that! Or its just not simple? Maybe to others, it might be simple for you. But to me, its difficult.

Sometimes as I went out with my friends and buddies. I will treat it as there's nothing wrong with me. I will laugh as usual as long I'm with them. No one truly knows me. I just don't know how to start a proper conversation with them. There are some matters I don't want to let them know as they will worry. When worries, they will become stress and can't excel in something. All I can do is keep it inside my inner heart. Seeing them sad, makes me even more sad too. Especially those that I really cares about. I don't really care what happens to me. I want my love ones to stay healthy and fortunate, that is my greatest wish already. =)

Anyway, this coming Saturday I'm going out for huiying birthday celebration and for gathering with my beloved primary school mates! Will be going katong there eat Aston's. Not sure if I will reach on time? If not later kana heng lee point middle finger at me.. LOLs! Joking Joking..